Friday, 2 January 2009

I finally stopped...I hope it's not too late.

I have been a regular smoker since I was 15. That 30 years. It is time to stop.

On New Years Eve I said to myself "My skin is shot, my chest hurts, I smell funny and I am knackered. I gotta stop" So I stopped.



Slight nicotine cravings assuaged by gum, no desire to light up another fag. This is my chance and I'm taking it. Tobacco and rizlas in the bin. I hope it's not too late.

30 comments:

Blue Eyes said...

I reckon it is easier to give up if you genuinely want to. You are a strong person so all you have to do is be strong!!

lilith said...

You are right Blue Eyes. This time feels different to other attempts. Then I felt I was fighting myself. Now it's just the fags and they are not as persuasive.

Blue Eyes said...

My dad used to smoke 40 Gauloise or Gitanes a day (sans filtre) from about age 15 and one day decided that it really wasn't worth the incapacity they caused him. So he stopped. No patches, chewing gum, nothing. Once he decided to stop, he didn't even want one again.

lilith said...

I am glad Blue Eyes. That's how Elby stopped too. Just didn't want to do it anymore. I feel the same, but I know I would get cranky for a bit without the gum. So the gum is for Elby/Calfy sakes!

Raedwald said...

I take my hat off - and hope you do well. All the best.

Me? Well, I still enjoy it too much. That first coffee and ciggie of the day is a pleasure too great for me to forswear. Yet.

Daisy said...

within 5 years your lungs will be completely clear...so i've been told...it's never too late...good luck to you!!!

Scrobs said...

Well done Lils - this will be a signal time for you, and one step like this is the most important.

I (we) gave up because the two main worries we had were money and health - so that was the force behind it all.

BTW, always say in times of need, 'I'll have one tomorrow'...of course you never do...

You've saved about £1 and prolonged your days by about three hours already!!!

lilith said...

Raedwald Hi, welcome and thanks. I was getting quite despairing about it all until the day before yesterday, then *paff* just like that I don't want to do it any more.

Encouraging words Daisy..looks like my health and the economy should come right around the same time..:-)

That's good advice Scrobs. I hope I continue to have a "that was then" attitude to cigarettes. They have never quite lost their appeal as they have for me now. I gave up several times before, but with the help of hypnosis. Even then it was a battle to stay stopped. I think, for once, all my sub personalities are standing in line on this one. Well done for stopping yourself.

Tuscan Tony said...

Is that you in the pic, Lils? I say.....!

lilith said...

Yes, TT, that was Fagash Lil before the fags,men,drugs,rock n roll and booze wrecked my looks and my mind...and when you could light up on a train!

Trubes said...

Good luck Lils, I used to smoke many years ago but only when I'd had a few drinks...but just stopped.....smoking, that is....still enjoy an odd tipple or five though, but without the fags.
You look just like Calfy on that picture....lovely.

Di.xx

Tuscan Tony said...

"wrecked my looks"? We thinks not!

I have to say "fags,men,drugs,rock n roll and booze" should be sold by you to Mandy's unofficial biographer for use as as a dustjacket quote.

fleetofworlds said...

Good luck with it, Lils - I stopped dead (from 20+ a day) 12 years ago and have managed to stick to it - I am sure you will be able to do the same!

idle said...

If I couldn't survive on half a dozen fags a day, lil, I'd join you. But I can, so I won't.

Apart from anything else, the idle weight-loss resolution (first time ever attempted, minus 1 stone by June 30) would be buggered up if I binned the gaspers and had to eat all the cashews during the cocktail hour.

With my Dunkirk spirit to the fore, I enjoyed freezing my knackers off in the garden of the non-smoking home I lunched at today. The Newbury area isn't what it used to be.

The Beast Of Clerkenwell said...

Ive quit drinking
its hooning awful.

Philipa said...

Well done, it's not too late. I still enjoy standing downwind of a smoker when outside, like one of the Bisto boys, but lighting up now makes me feel sick.

Barnsley Bill said...

well done lils, and if I may say.. phwoar!

Popeye the Smokerman (ex) said...

Well done, Lilith - now just keep it up. If you need to do something with your hands, just get hold of a biro and twiddle it until the feeling passes. I used to smoke about 15 a day in my youth, but one day just like you I stopped dead and have never been near one again for over 30 years. If you don't buy 'em, you can't smoke 'em.

Within 3 days as your sense of smell improves you will notice how the clothes of people who smoke smell of stale tobacco; and how sweet fresh countryside air is.

Now, just put the daily cash saved into a jam jar and there is the funds for this year's 2 weeks in Cannes .....

Be strong and in a month's time you will wonder why you ever started in the first place.

lilith said...

Thanks, Trubes. I am a few years older than Calfy in this pic. Probably 21ish.

I am on to his agent, TT.

Fleet, well done! 12 years?

Idle, it's not your time to stop and anyway, I will enjoy standing downwind of you sometime, as Pip suggests! Newbury, eh? I remember it well...a little chilly at this time of year...

Beast, what did you want to go and do that for? Well done all the same. Does that include fruit beer?

Yes Pip, but only rolling tobacco smoke...you can keep Benson and Hedges :-)

Bill, you are too kind :-)

Popeye, I feel relieved. Like, phew, I don't have to do that any more. There may be times of strain ahead, when the obvious thing to do is smoke a cigarette, but, as you say, I shall be ready for them. Food tastes a lot better. Do you have massive forearms? I have a thing about forearms.

Anonymous said...

Lilith,

To drop down dead in one's tracks from a vice would not be so bad. However what happens most of the time is medical intervention, that can keep you lingering on in utter misery for quite a while.
A day with a close relative of mine... watching him writhe in his bed in pain... seeing his personality disintegrate... hoping that he wont suffer too long... does give one pause for thought.
Good luck with your resolution.

LM

Anonymous said...

If you find yourself lapsing, try reading a book by Allen Carr entitled

The Easy Way to Give up Smoking

It takes just an evening to read and it worked for me. 30 a day to stop in one go. That was over 8 years ago.

The author argues the case that you are not giving up anything, you are simply taking control of an addiction.

Good luck!

The Lakelander

lilith said...

Thank you LM. I hope that your relative doesn't suffer long. That is what I dread. I couldn't hack all the barbaric cancer treatment, I know. Except for the morphine. My maternal grandmother dropped dead of a massive heart attack (she smoked all her life) at 84 and this is what I hope for. However, all the other grandparents had cancer. Two lung. So I don't like the odds.


Well done Lakes! This is all inspiring. I did stop once with Alan Carr but my inner gremlin/teenager said "sod it" and started again. Death wish. It's that bit I feel like I have lost. At last.

Anonymous said...

I had always said I would stop when I reached 40.

That's years old - not 40 a day (though I was heading there.)

When I turned 40 I didn't stop, but vowed to give up that year.

Seeing my father having half a lung removed, due to lung cancer proved to be the tipping point for me. He could have smoked for Scotland but hasn't had one since and, 8 years on, is thankfully still with us.

When I see all the poor sods shivering outside pubs and offices, while they have a fag, I'm glad I gave up when I did. It can't be much fun being a smoker in Britain these days.

And once you've stopped, it does get easier each day.

The Lakelander

Popeye etc said...

Lilith - massive comes close but humungous comes even closer!

The only massive thing I possess is the hole in my bank account after 50+ years with Miss Olive Oyl, Pee Wee etc..

fuchsia groan said...

Happy New Year Lilith and good luck with the stopping smoking. I never have, but t'other half stopped about ten years ago with the help of Alan Carr. Says it is one the best things he ever did.
Having watched my mother die of lung cancer (she didn't smoke), it is something I wouldn't wish on anyone.
Wow! You were/are so beautiful.

lilith said...

Fuchsia, I am so sorry about your Mum. My Grandfather died of lung cancer and he didn't smoke either. Terrifying.

Thank you for all the encouragement. It's day 5 and I am still not missing smoking. And I was crabbier before I stopped. Elby says I look two years younger already. Soon I will look my actual age :-)

electro-kevin said...

Gnnn... That looks like a British Rail slam-door carriage on a VEP or a BEP (A DC electric class unit).

Gnnnn...

(Yes. Phwoar ! Indeed, Lilith.)

Elby the Beserk said...

She's gorgeous. my girl :-) And all the more so for stopping smoking. That greeny yellow hue did nothing for her complexion...

I gave up after 30+ years (mostly devoted to Old Holborn - never found any other tobacco or ready rolled, despite the youthful affection for Gitane, that comes close to Old Holborn. Although non-filter Capstan Full Strength as effective a tool for clearing the bowels as Old Holborn, for sure. But I digress), in the middle of major chaos in my life, out of love, in love, driving up and down all the time to Cheshire to deal with my alcoholic Mum, starting to realise had to get out of job for sanity. Woke up one morning, and realised I was done with it. I think four years and a few months ago, probably. Not had the slightest desire for one since, and - even better - I promptly lost a stone in weight :-) Since slowly regained, so I suspect it was simply the fact that I was moving far too fast for my own good.

All worked out tho', as it was then I ran into L :-)

electro-kevin said...

I'm devoted to Old Holborn too, Elby.

Never smoked in my life !

;-)

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